You've Got Mail...

....a few nights ago, The Wife and I watched "Sleepless in Seattle"...a few days later, we watched "You've Got Mail"....word up....don't watch those two movies that close to each other...it will throw a major mindjob on you...sitting here now, it is STILL hard to remember which was which...

..anyway, last night, we watched "The Shop Around the Corner"...with Jimmy Stewart and Margaret Sullivan...the "You've Got Mail" story was based on this one....and, friends and neighbors, I'm here to tell ya...Tom Hanks doesn't deserve to wipe Stewart's ASS...that movie rocked...

..the down-side was that the movie came on TCM kinda late...so...I was Scotched-up enough to begin to equate their "letters" to blogging...and, even to stuff I wrote back when I was a pup in high school...I told my wife about a journal I kept way-back-when...back then, I was madly in love with a girl named Lisa the whole time I was in school....she was incredible....cheerleader, of course....I had the same college-bound English class that she did...although, I never actually went to college, but that's another story....

...I never even spoke to her directly the whole time I was in school...she was the unattainable....she was the shining jewel on the pedestal....at least to me....in retrospect, if I'd had the balls to walk up to her and ask her out..take my chances, so to speak...I might have whisked her away on my arm....but, that is not the point of this, and it was NOT the point of it then....I wanted her to be the unattainable prize...I NEEDED her to be the thing that I couldn't get....couldn't have....I don't know why, but I liked our one-way relationship better that way....

..I wrote poetry about her...for her...beCAUSE of her....and she never knew....I filled a notebook with poems of her....and she never knew....but, more importantly, I didn't WANT her to know at the time...Hell, I'd been reading the classical romantics at the time, and maybe I was getting a little too inspired by them...but, I found comfort in worshipping her from afar.....and, on the last day of school...before we graduated....I wrote her a note...anonymous, of course....and left the journal in her locker...

....two days later, I was bound for Parris Island...and, I've never spoken to her to this day...

...while watching "The Shop Around the Corner", I mentioned my little journal to my Wife....earlier in our courtship, I had written poems to my Wife as well....but, as I told her about my story, she smiled and asked....."what did you write?", ...I suddenly stumbled to find the words..."I wrote about the Elm trees in my back yard....once, I had a dream...and I woke up, and wrote...'I sometimes see you standing in the moonlight...beneath the Elms'"...she raised herself onto her elbows, and said.."mmmm....I know those Elm trees.....how did the rest of it go?"....

...and....there I sat....I didn't remember the rest of the poem....I don't remember ANY of the poems that are in that little journal...I would give anything to have that journal back now...I WANT to know what I said...what I felt...what I imagined....but, it is gone...

What did Lisa do with that handwritten note book?…the one that was mysteriously found in her locker on the last day of school?....the one that no one signed their name to?...did she discard it?....did she keep it?....did she even READ it?...ahhhh......oblivion....

....if you have not seen the original "Shop Around the Corner"....do yourself a favor...rent it...wait till it is on TCM again...whatever....but, make SURE you see it....two people "met" via letters....and the truth of their souls were bared to each other over the written word...none of us have any idea of the power we hold.....sometimes, our words have a deeper impact than we can possibly imagine...sometimes, they have no impact at all, except upon ourselves...but, regardless....our words are OUR words....and we should keep them....if only to remind ourselves later of where we have been...

by Eric on January 26, 2004 | Comments(6) | SWG Stories

Comments so far:

OMG! I started watching that too--it was on after one of my FAVORITE movies of all time--"Rear Window."

posted by: Lawren on January 26, 2004 09:35 PM

ehheh...yep, Lawren, watched that first too....eheheh

posted by: Eric on January 26, 2004 09:39 PM

a aint never seen that movie, but i met n corted n marrd miz bd on a counta how we had a long-distants cortship with lots of letters writ twixt us, a nuff to know we wonted to git marrd even tho we wuz on differnt continents n hadnt seen each other since we wuz jes lil tikes of four n five years old. twuz forty years after that when i gut mail frum her n we rote up a storm, finely plannin our marrg in edinburgh scotland, home of most of our ancesters, witch them hillbillies frum our lil holler wuz purty much all frum the same scottish stock.


i also luved yer deescripshun of that thar diary ye dun give away. tiz as tragickull as mos innythang ye could have happen to ye. woodnt it be wonderful ifn lisa wuz to read yer blog n recognize it n send yer property back to ye?

posted by: buddy don on January 27, 2004 08:25 AM

I had a boy like that in school..man I loved that BOY!!! Never spoke to him though..but messed up here recently and went to classmates.com and saw what he looks like now..the last 17yrs were not kind...damn wished I still had my memories of what he used to look like..wished I could still fantasize that he's out there in the world doing something great..but alas..the truth reared it's ugly head and squashed it for me...

posted by: sandy on January 27, 2004 11:55 AM

Wow. Does that mean that there were guys like you in MY high school?

For some reason, I find that difficult to believe.

posted by: Key on January 27, 2004 06:29 PM

..that's just it, Key...you never really know...some of us wallflowers had a wee bit of potential...;)

posted by: Eric on January 27, 2004 06:50 PM